Of Junks and Eye-Contacts...

Insert: Bad Apple [Tohou Doujin song]

Okay, while I was cleaning my room yesterday...
I stumbled across a lot of junks...
And including some precious stuffs, of course.

Junks... like... well, junks.
And even those mathematics-usage half-circles. =w=
I have more than 2 of them in my house OTL|||
Why did I buy so much?! =A=?!
Oh, I remembered...
It's because sometimes I just forget to bring them to school...
And when teacher asked, I just buy...
It's just 50 sen for one, that's why... =w=
Ha...ha...

Okay, aside from the junks...
I found MONEY!
Of course, they're just coins. =v=
Nothing biggie...
And then, I found...

LETTERS!
FROM GRACE (THE SHINING GRACIOUS)!
WOW!!!

I can't believe I still kept them nicely Owo
Though I really forgot what's they're about...
I mean, the actual incident.
But I DO remember all the code-names. PX
Amazing...
Thank me for remembering them, Neez. 8D

Then... also SOME letters...
Some... unsent letters...
To the previous someone.

Hmmmmmm...
I wonder if I should just keep it or throw it away?
Keep it as a reference? For what?
Throw it away? Hmm... I did write some good words inside...
But......
...
...
...
Bah, I should've just thrown it away then.
Just like how I do with the very first crush's stuffs.
Okay. *nods*
Throw it shall be. *nods*
*throws*



It shall be forgotten.

Just like how my heart already had.

Frozen up, and forgotten.



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[NOTE: This is already another topic]

I somehow realized something.

I can't make eye-contacts with some certain people.

Is it because of fear? I think so.
Since... well, I can face my college-mates well...
I can face my friends well...
But... I can't face two types of people:
A) The people that I feel guilty of
B) The people that I fear that I might have a crush on

Yeap, you heard the second one.

That's why... if I did not look at you when we speak face to face, it means that.
Or A, which is unlikely. (Unless I really did something wrong... hmm... Dunno? PX)
The biggest reason might be B.

That's why... Sometimes... I couldn't even face my dear. OTL|||
Especially that day when dear wanted me to record the process of...
......someone turning into a Lala-Mui (LMAO!)
[Which, I think, if I ever record it, it'll be a parody of MichellePhan =w=
And I'll be laughing until die when I record it...]
Anyway, yes.
I couldn't face my dearest because I know...
If I really faced that brown eyes and that cute pouting face...
I would SURELY agree to it. =w=

And I couldn't face those pictures of my dear at first...
Because they're so handsome and beautiful and pretty and...
Ooooooooohhhhhhh... *droolsssssss*

Okay, I gotta stop. =w=

And another reason why I couldn't very much face my previous one that much.
Because... yeah.
But now, I can see the pictures very well.
AND remember the face... (even if I don't wanna...)
And able to compare the before and after HAHAHA!!!
And perhaps, the real face to face, if I ever meet that freaking person again.

Though yesterday, I seemed to get used to my feelings...
And... I guess... I was able to face my dear for a few moments before turning away.
Yeah... I think so.
Wait. Am I still turning away? Owo?!
Anyway, I guess that's because...
Either I got used to that, or I accepted that I really is in love with my dear...
And definitely not afraid to show it out. <3

Yeap, definitely.
Since I can so openly wait for........ heheheheheeee~ <3
And missing dear for...... PXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Oh, you know what's the best thing that happened yesterday?
To be able to eat the cherry tomato...
...while watching closely at dear rushing here and there...
To make dinner. <3

Ahhh... One of the best experience EVER.

The way that my dearest moves and............. X999999



Okay, I need to stop acting like a pervert and start doing my stuffs. =w=



SERIOUSLY.