Koishichattanda...?

Insert: CHE.R.RY [By YUI]

Have you done/felt this towards someone before...?

1. SMS with that someone from morning until the night.
2. Call that someone everyday just for fun.
3. Things just couldn't be express through phone.
4. Want to meet that someone right now.
5. Reciting that someone's name over and over again in your heart.
6. Even though it's embarrassing, you put that someone's picture as your phone's wall.
7. Squeal and hug and kiss the phone because there's the picture of that someone.
8. Laugh embarrassed when that someone spoke of something so true about you.
9. Able to hug that someone to sleep without wanting to wake up.
10. Did not want to leave that someone even though it's already the time for it.

And et cetera...



You know what?
Those are what I'm feeling right now.

And I only realized that today.

Oh my, I never thought that I would fall in love with someone...
Perhaps it's just a mere crush, but still...

The warmth of being embraced by someone...
The kindness that you felt after being rejected by someone else...
The happiness of calling someone's name without feeling any awkwardness...



Seriously, I think I'm really in love.



I don't believe that at first, because... well...
I've just... kinda... "ended" something like, a few days prior this...
Then suddenly this came and I'm very shocked about the "question"...

And for this someone's sake, I shall do it then.

At first I thought it's going to be something like a game of some sort but...
I guess I was beaten by my own game...
Or rather, I've fallen into the trap in this game...



Odd, I've been trying hard to ignore that someone...
Because I knew that it won't be true...
But somehow...

It just came to me.

I must be so pathethic right now. OTL|||



And more than one people might hate me right now. =w=

Nii-chan, tasukete~~~ ;A;

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I really feel like singing one song towards that someone:

"4 Real", by Avril Lavigne.

" 'cause I'm for real, are you for real?
I can't help myself, that's the way I feel...
When you look me in the eyes like you did last night,
I can't stand to hear you say goodbye..."

I know that THAT someone might not be serious about this...
And was just asking for fun...
But...



It seemed like I fell into the trap.

And I know, it's NOT good.

Because I've fallen in love with someone that I shouldn't be loving.

And that person still have someone else in the heart.

And that's not me. *sigh*

But well, at least I'm having a lesser stuff in my back right now.
And... at least that someone still treats me fair.
Unlike some certain OTHER someone which I've thrown it away.



Even though it might ends in the wrong way,
But I guess I can let it go...

Because I have no more regrets.......

But until that day, let me be a selfish princess for the moment...
And enjoy your kindness until the very end of THAT day...

Until that day...