K-On Banzai!!! (Covers)

Insert: K-On playlist 8DDD

*cough*
So... today's Friday.
Yes.
DON'T SING THAT DAMN SONG OR I KEEL J00!!! =A=

*coughcough*
That aside...
I decided to cover K-On songs today 8DDDDDDD
And I actually covered FOUR SONGS!!!
ZOMG FOUR?!?!?!
This is like... BREAKING MY OWN RECORD WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~

*coughcoughcough*
Sorry.
Anyway, I have four songs here, and... maybe you should listen them accordingly PX
Of course you may choose... whatever =w=

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First song: Fuwa Fuwa Taimu!

Can you guess how many people are singing this song? 8DDD
IT'S ONLY ONE PERSON WHICH IS ME LOOOOLZZZZZZZ~~~ XDDDDDD
Of course, after you listen to this song first =3=
Although it's split into four parts... >w>
Or you wouldn't know.

Okay, you ready to know?
Go back up and highlight my words (under the FFT song) 8DDDDDD

*cough* Fine, you might have known it, but whatever...

I was just playing with my voice for fun, so don't kick me if things gone wrong lulz~ PXXX

PS: I know the background vocals are WRONG (or rather, different from the original), but I don't have enough time to do them so... =3=



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Next song: Don't Say 'Lazy'!

I actually covered this song before, but... it failed OTL|||
So, I decided to re-cover this.
And... I'm not quite sure, but for me, it works this time~ 8D
Though not 100% perfectly but still...
It's better than the previous version *loves~*

PS: I didn't put any effects in the song, it's purely MY VOICE. 8DDD



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Now: U & I!!!

This song is dedicated to Kou the Uke-chan! 8D
I hope he can recover from his sickness soon X<
Because I don't like seeing him sick. =3=

Of course, the whole song does represent what I wanted to say towards him =3

So my dearest Uke-chan, please get well soon! ^w^

*after HOURS in FB* What the... You recover liao?! =A=
Fine. No use in singing this song. HMPH!

Baka.

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Lastly: Lovely ONIE-SAMA Love!!! <3
Okay, originally, it was "Lovely SISTER Love"...
But I changed some parts of the lyrics and... well, the title XDDDDDD

And of course, as most of you all know, this song is dedicated to my dearest...
Precious...
KAKKOI...

REINA-ONIE-SAMAAAAAA~~~ *kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~*

*cough* Sorry. I got hyper lulzzz

And for the lulz, I shall post up the lyrics down below 8DDD
Of course, only in ROMANJI because I'm lazeh PX

Lovely ONIE-SAMA Love

Lyric Rearranged by: Arcym

ano hi ae kara no nakayoshi yeah yeah
deai wa unmei ne? zettai
nandemo hanbun kosuru kara peace peace
shiawase wa nibai ni kawaru no

asa da yo gohan kai ta yo
kaminoke nagai ga ta yo
doushite ka na... kakkoikute~ hottokenai

suki! suki!! daisuki!!!
onie-sama daisuki
nee anata no imouto de atashi yokatta
attaka yawaraka osowaru sono tabi ni
atashi ni mo dekiru nanika o sagashiteru

yoku dekita koto iwarete mo non non
hitorikiri ja zenzen dame kamo
issho ni iru kara yaruki ya yuuki BURN BURN!
yasumazu waitekite moeru no

ano hi kureta Sebas-chan~
tottemo ne, ureshikatta
anna SAPURAIZU (surprise) donna fuu ni okaeshi shiyou

suki? suki?? chotto suki???
"Semeru" jibun ga suki...!?
yasashisa ya kakkoi kirei o atsumete
nikkori hogaraka morau bakka ja naku agetai
sasayaka na negai da kedo ne honki no yume

"okaeri-nasai goshujin-sama"
Konna no koto wo kitte ru yo
tanoshii ne okannai (okane ga nai) sae futari nara

suki! suki!! daisuki!!!
onie-sama daisuki
itsuka sudatsu sono hi made ne yoroshiku ne
attaka yawaraka osowaru sono tabi ni
Atashi ni mo dekiru nanika o sagashiteru

I'm sorry about one thing though...
This song TOTALLY doesn't suit my range @A@
I really had a hard time covering this song OTL|||

And I'm sorry if I used your photo ne Onie-sama PXXX
Well, it's censored anyway *shrugs*

NYAHAHAHAHAHAHARRRR~~~ 8DDDDDD

EDIT: WHY YOU SICK?! AHHHH~~~ THIRD PERSON SICK WEIII!!! ;A;
And I told you to take care of yourself, not to simply simply makan makan...
YOU DON'T LISTEEEN!!! *insert the song Listen by Beyonce and Listen!! of K-On*
Sleep earlier and drink more water!
Don't worry about other stuffs anymore! X<

AND GET WELL SOOOOOON!!!!!!!
X0

You two as well, Yaya-nii-chan and Kou-chuan. =3=

Tooi Kono Machi de / Tsubasa wa Pleasure Line

Insert: My covers LUUULZZZZZZ XDDD *shot*

Okay, I've taken down the previous video/song of Tooi Kono Machi de, and replaced with this one. They're the same, audio wise, but I changed the picture luuulzzz PXXXXX
Kinda pointless, I know, but... Well, it indicates something to me. =3

「いくつもの交差点
　いつも迷うけど
　流されたり　追い越されたりして
　今を生きてる

　la la la la　歌おう
　空を見上げて
　la la la la It's my life
　歩いて行こう 」

Yes, this song indicates that, well, to me, that no matter what happened in the past, I won't forget them. I've fell down, I've lost my path. Yet, I'm still alive. And with this living body of mine, I shall continue my journey with strength and confidence, which no one can stop me down.




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Another song that indicates my... uhhh... revival? XDDDDDD

Tsubasa wa Pleasure Line!

Though it's somehow like two people talking (in the lyrics),
But for me, it's like I'm telling myself of what I should do.
Or, what I once promised myself.

And here, I shall sing it to the whole world!

「朝焼けに Fly away！！！」

Shoujo S / Tooi Kono Machi de

Insert: Shoujo S [by SCANDALS] and Tooi Kono Machi de [by Kaitani Naomi]

Shoujo S... LOLFAIL! XDDDD
But no time to re-record them @A@

So... the background voice, and the main voice...
Well, if one okay, the other fail.

Though I have totally no idea why I enjoyed this so much OAo?!

Anyway...

Please listen, enjoy, and comment~ 8D
PS: Keep your volume down. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
PPS: I still want to cover this with Onie-sama... ;3; It'll be AWESOME!!! <3



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LOOOLZZZ!!!
I now baru tau the singer of "Tooi Kono Machi de"!
After 10+ years listening to this song XDDDD

I put this up right after the second time recording it,
Because it's good enough...
Well, compare to the first one.
Though I intend to put up the first one before but...
This one's better PXXX

Please listen, enjoy, and comment~ 8D



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Originally, still wanted to cover for another song.
But no time. 0w0
My mom barged into the room again OTL|||

Oh well, tomorrow then. PX

HIGHSCHOOL OF THE DEAD!
HERE I COOOOMEEEE~~~ XDDDDDDDDDD

Just Be Friends / Kimi ni Todoke

Insert: Just Be Friends Piano Ver. [by Megurine Luka] + Kimi ni Todoke [by May'S]

After cover and cover and re-cover these two songs for like, the whole day, these two version are the best I've covered for the whole day. I know they're still not nico-singer-quality (which I aimed to be), but I'm gonna improve and be on par with those nico-singers! *FIRED UP!!!*

Of course, first aim: Rai/Blitzace95 and Rin/RinSakuraRin!!!
If I can't match myself to these two, then I wouldn't even THINK of going into the nico-singers-quality.

Anyway, up to the covers!!!

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I know I have covered this song for like, 3 times? Owo
But I want to know my improvements...

This version, in my opinion, has improved in notes (at least they're not THAT flat anymore =w=)
But emotion wise... ehhh... OTL|||
I fail la dei.

If Emotion = Good, then Notes = Bad.
If Notes = Good, then Emotion = Bad.

Haiz. Sadcase. =3=
First thing to correct myself next time...

Anyway, the song!
Kimi ni Todoke, polished version!
3rd time covering the song 8DDD *shot*






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Second one... Just Be Friends, piano version.

This is my first time cover this song, though... well, I've self-improved for... N-times. OTL|||
The outcome... Well, emotions = good, but notes = not so good. orzorzorz
Sii yeh my voice =A=

Oh well, I hope you guys would enjoy it...





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実話ね、この二つの歌はね。。。
有るの人の為に歌うです。
まああ、聞いてないだけどね？
だって、怒ちゃった見たい。

てへ～？



じゃないだけど。=w=



二つの歌も、あたし自分の言葉、と、気持ちになった。

「君に届け」はあたし一番、何時までも話したいの気持ち。
「Just Be Friends」はあたし今の気持ち。
って、聞いてないでしょうね？*scratches head*
何で歌うかな。。。



はは。=w=

「君に届け 　君に届け
　叶わない恋でもいい 　傷ついてもいい
　何度でも伝えたい

　君が好きで 　君が好きで
　眠れない夜でもいい 　朝が来なくてもいい
　何度でも伝えたい 　君に届け 」
～　君に届け

「　愛してるのに　離れがたいのに　僕が言わなきゃ

　一度だけ　一度だけ　願いが叶うのならば
　何度でも生まれ変わって　あの日の君に逢いに行くよ

　さよなら愛した人　ここまでだ　もう振り向かないで歩き出すんだ 」
～　Just Be Friends

昨日からちょっと考えて。
「過去を戻る」の事なんてね。
如何かな。。。
無理見たい様な。。。
だって。。。

「僕の心は棘だらけだ 」

まああ、あんたも電話あげないしい。
やっぱりもうあきらめろうだな。
まああいいよ。

「分かってたよ　心の奥底では　最も辛い　選択がベスト 」



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Originally, I wanted to cover Shoujo S [by SCANDAL] as well.
Mana tau...

When I was "happily" covering the song,
My mom knocked into my door:
"You know you're very loud right?"

Whoops.

"Oh, I'll cover it tomorrow then~" 8999

Hahahahaha~~~ XDDDDDD

And so, I shall cover Shoujo S tomorrow!

OHHHHH!!!!!! *FIRED UP!* 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Three Best Days of April...

Insert: Shoujo S [by SCANDALS]

Why Shoujo S, you ask?
Because this is the song I sang the best...
With my most precious onii/nee-sama...
REINA/LUKA/SEBASTIAN/...should I put every single nicknames here?! =A=

*cough* Anyway, that aside...
I would like to dedicate this song towards her,
Because she's so awesome (influence much from Qiqi LOLZ),
As a butler, as an entertainer, and as a friend =3
I'm really happy to know her...

Especially when she presented the three best days for me...
In the whole April. \(^w^)/

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Right after my most emo post...
Is it really that emo?
Well, it's emotional, true, but... not really emo until the point you can actually call it emo...
Whatever.
Anyway, after that extremely DOWN post...
Which is, Wednesday? Yeah.
For Friday, Saturday, and Sunday...
My awesome friend/onee/nii-sama Reina presented the three best days for me!

Okay, maybe not for me, but that aside... 8DDDDDDD



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~ Friday :: 22.04.2011 ~
NOTE: Please don't start to sing the song "Friday" =A=

The first day of the Butler event.

I wasn't supposed to be there...

Well actually, I was supposed to go to my college's degree student graduation concert...
But I got so lazy all of the sudden and decided to go grab on the lenses from Times Square,
With Kou.
So, he come aaaaaaaaaaaaaaall the way from Times Square,
Then makan with me (my gosh, the food is nice. Thanks Kou!) in a restaurant near his place,
Then JANKEN (scissors-paper-rock) with me for our next destination...
THEN go aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall the way back to Times Square...

Well actually, it's to Sg. Wang, but whatever. PX

Meiwaku kakete gomennasai yo ne, uke-CHUAN. 8DDDDDDDDD *shot*

So, we get our lenses for Hime-sama and...
ONII-SAMAAAAA~~~ *cough* sorry. Continue...
And myself, we JANKEN again for our next destination...

Which is Tenshi no Cafe.

And so, from Times Square,
We go aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall the way from KL to Damansara.
Wau, this is AWESOME 8DDDDD (Wait. Qiqi influence much?! OAo?!)

I thought it'll be boring and so I brought along my laptop.

Who knows.......

WALAO, THE BUTLERS ARE SINGING!!!

Okay, I knew that already, but...

WALAO, ONII-SAMA IS SINGING TO US UKES---

Wait. Did I just said that I'm an Uke? =A=?!
Oshit.
OTL|||
(Though actually I'm a Seke... nevermind that.)

The most interesting that awed me is that...

Some of the Butlers who're originally maids, became SO FREAKING HANDSOME.

1. Sebastian (Reina-onii-sama)
2. Toya (Akiko... damn, I can't believe she's THAT Sawako-sensei we met in Animangaki =A=)
3. Sakurai (I don't know her original name. Is it Sakurai too? 0w0)
4. Ryou (Mirai. Damn, she looks like one of those from SHINee for some reason LOLZ)

Though Reina-onii-sama had that uke-voice--- I mean, girly voice intact with her, but her seme-ness is attracting a lot of ukes to meltdown in her flirtatious actions. *loves* That aside, SHE TREATS US UKES REALLY NICEEEEEE~~~~~~ KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~~~ *fangirlinglolz* I'm really happy to be her uke. *ahhhhhhh~~~ love signssssss* I soooooooo enjoyed being pampered by her. *teehee~*

Toya-kun is awesome. He--- She--- He--- UGH. SHE! Had that hot dude's look, and that gentleman's actions. But... Sadly, or interestingly, she still had her strawberry nails on LOLZ. XDDDDDDD But it's okay. It's cute. *loves* Sadly she doesn't perform at all, for both days. ;A; Nyuuuuuu~~~ But she's awesome. *LOVES!!!*

Sakurai is DAMN HOT. She looks like Namie Amuro in Policewoman suit... Not sure if you get what I mean, but it's okay. Anyway, her singing voice also DAMN HOT. DEEP AND HOT. Okay that sounds so wrong but ZOMGHOT. With that sunglasses ohhhhhhhh... Awesome~~~ 8DDDDDD

Ryou is good in acting as a boy, but not really as a butler. Still, her singing voice is actually very awesome (from what I heard the other day), but...... WHY... ARE... YOU... SO... DAMN... SHY?!?!?! TAT Sing it out gurl--- I mean, boy!

Aside from those tranz--- I mean, maid turned into butlers, the original butlers are somehow very much kakkoi as well! For example, Kazuya... with and without his "white mask"; and Mashiro, with and without the sunglasses (though with sunglasses, he's more a Seme. Without sunglasses - only normal glasses - he's an uke for definite sure.) Oh, I love their voices. *lovesssss~*



I can say that this Friday's event is like, Kou and I's private show LOLZ.
Why? Because we seemed to be the most that enjoyed it PX
Well, they're awesome (though not all of them =w=),
So yeah 8DDDDDD

Events are supposed to be enjoyed anyway. *loves*

I had fun criticizing as well though... LOLZ. PXXX
Of course, only for fun, not for real 8DDD

But seriously, the whole thing damn screwed up wei... =A=
The manager seriously...... haiz. *shakes head*
Oh well, not my problem~ *whistles--- wait. I can't whistle ;A;*

PS: ...wait. Some pieces of memories gone from my head already... =A= I can't seemed to remember how Reina pulled me out and...... Hmmmmmm... How was it again? Or I'm too into the thing that I forgotten how was it except that it's really a thrilling experience? *searching memories... failed OTL|||*



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~ Saturday :: 23.04.2011 ~

NOTE: No more Fridays, okay? PX

Now this day, is also Papa Wayne's birthday party.
I can't believe that he's actually younger than me one year =A=
And this dude actually had 40 family members to attend his party,
Which almost... or maybe, over half of the members are his DAUGHTERS.

Reina-nee-chan is so good to crossplay--- *wait, something is wrong...*
I mean, cosplay as a maid Hatsune Miku.
With Nekomimi and neko-paws~~~ 8DDDDDD *loves*

Another thing that I can't believe...
Papa cried! For the presents we gave him!
Well actually, the first daughter / my twin / Qiqi chose the present with some of the other people.
I just give the money =w=

Awwwwww...
We're so good...
Papa so sentimental... PXXX
Never seen this side of Wayne LOLZ!

After the birthday event (where most of the people left ;w;),
Me and Kou stayed behind for the final event of the day.
And here's where we met Yaya and Angelos (lolzAngelina).

Had a great time chatting outside of the cafe,
Though I feel quite bad of eating outside of the cafe...
I mean, instead of staying in the cafe and eat,
We eat outside before going back in.
But what the others said are true:
"It's too expensive, and not savoring."

And so, I had Subway instead. PX
VEGGIE DELITE~~~ 8DDDDDD
*cough* That aside.



Reina-onii-sama KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~ *loveslovesloves*



You don't know how much s/he had done for the two ukes here:
Me and Kou.
*love and flower signs in the background*

So, let's talk about the event's performances step by step...
The best is at the back LOLZ

First, it's dancing performance.
They dance K-Pop songs, like:
Sorry Sorry, Abracabra, Lucifer...
And more.
Those Big Bang songs la, whatever matcha la...
Ah, those songs la.
Big hits.
But I don't know their names =w=

Anyway, throughout the whole dances, I only focus on Reina.
Because SHE'S SO DAMN AWESOMEEE~
Though she's... maybe a lil' tired for the past few days?
She wasn't as good as I seen her practice the other day.
Hmmm...
But still, she's the BEST among all of them.

Of course, there's another notable dancer...
Ryou/Mirai! The SHINee look-alike LOLZ *is shot by SHINee lovers*
*cough* But yes, her dance moves are not bad as well. =3
Also complimented by onii-sama about her awesome dance moves.

After the dances (though other than the K-Pop dance, the rest kinda... bored me out =w=),
There's some several special lil' programs.
Like...

WALTZZZ!!! 8DDDDDD

Oh damn... How happy is THAT ultimate Uke who's sitting beside me that day...
Being able to listen to Onii-sama's heartbeat--- I mean, his/her trembling hand LOLZ
He is the first to go, and... well, we actually planned in advance already.
Manatau, there's something unexpected happening there. 0w0
S'posed to be me first but...
I don't know why it became the Uke go first. =3=
Nyuuu...
Though I still get to be invited by Onii-sama for the second round ^///^
Nyahahahahaharrr~~~ 8DDDDDD

Though that tossing is really unexpected. =w=
Nii-sama, please tell me in advance earlier about things that I didn't expect.
Because I won't know how to react. OTL|||
Sorry for ruining the dance as well... ;3;

*Daki o sete hoshii, tashikamete hoshii... eh? Why this song came in? LOLZZZ*

After the whole waltz dance, I thought there's no more exciting stuffs...
Since, well, this is the last program.
Manatau...

AHHHHH!!! ONII-SAMA!!! BITING A ROSE!!!
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~~~~~
(^ Yes, I literally screamed in the cafe)
*LOVESSSSSS*

S/he is SO DAMN KAKKOI!!!
Seriously, if she doesn't mind, I really wanted to GLOMP her already...
Who cares about the damn gender?!
It's a freaking fine art!!! *HUGE LOVE SIGN*

Yes, it's a piece of art.
Therefore fangirling, not blushing or embarassed.
Though I DID feel a lil' bit embarassed the previous day,
When Onii-sama faked a kissing scene with me... *fallen in love... with that scene*
Ahhhhhhhhhhh... Onii-samaaaa... I don't mind to die now. (Please don't die =A=)

Now I finally understand how the Uke felt to be......
In... some... certain... positions, with Onii-sama. PX
Damn, it's like, one of the best experience for the year. *ahhhhhhh~*

*coughcough* That aside...
S/he walked out, biting a rose...
But made a very funny reaction to the rose later that makes me laugh XDDD
LOOOOOLZZZZZZ~~~

And so, once again, the Uke is SO DAMN LUCKY to be chosen as her partner again.
Ahhhhh... It's lovely to see both of them. *love sign*
Suddenly... WALAO!!!

ONII-SAMA IS SINGING TO THE UKE!!!!!!
THE SONG "JUST THE WAY YOU ARE"!!!!!!
Imagine how freaking romantic is that...
SYOK LA YOU UKE! PXXX
(I can see your face... hiding behind your hands la dei... *evil smirk + smile*)

The ocha price definitely worth the scenes... *LOVES*

And after the whole dance, WALAO!!!
Onii-sama knelt down and presented the rose, like... A WEDDING SCENE!!!
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~
It's just so AWESOMEEEEEE~~~ *LOVES*

I should've taken a picture... but nevermind. My mind captured it. *loves*

And when I thought this is finally the end of everything...
(Though I did teased/complained about I didn't get the rose and to be sang LOLZ)
Suddenly, Onii-sama popped out from the office and asked me to take out my hand.
I was like "??? Okay???" and gave my hand to her... him... WHATEVER...
SHE SUDDENLY KISSED MY HAND KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~
AND PRESENTED ME THE ROSE KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~
*coughcoughcough* Squealed too much =3=

Anyway...

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~

So, yeah, squealed, and be pampered.
So damn syok. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~

This is an AWESOME experience.
AWESOME.
AWESOME INDEED.
*loveslovesloveslovesloveslovesloves*

I have meltdown...

*Kissu wo shite, nurikaete hoshii, miwaku no toki ni yoishire, oborete itai no... wait. It doesn't make sense. =A=*

*MERUTO me mo awaserarenai, koi ni koi nante shinai wa watashi, datte kimi no koto ga
...suki nano! X33333333333333333333333333333333333*

Anyway, the first rose that she gave to Uke wasn't really meant for him,
But meant for someone else.
Manatau... confusions happened (just like the previous program lolz),
And ended up finding him PX
Though at the end all of us got one rose. NYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~



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~ Sunday :: 24.04.2011 ~

Note: Beware of blootot. 0A0

For two days squealing and everything...
Damn, my body hurts and my brain is dis-functioning.
Kou is almost facing the same problem.
@w@ Looolzzzzzzz...

Anyway, at 7, after calling him to wake up, I went back to sleep.
It's like, I've never whined to stay in the bed for so long time =A=
How tired can I freaking be?
(Normally I'm the one pushing people, but this day's just... not the day.)

So, when I finally woke up, it's... around 9 like that.
This is where I baru start to work out on my preparations.
I can't believe my zombie mode actually work off for the day...
To actually let me complete my preparations. *applause... =w=*
I guess Kou helped out the most.

Oh, if you haven't noticed yet, Kou was sleeping over for 2 nights. PXXX

Anyway... When we're done, we called Seme-king---
I mean, Blootot--- Nonono.
Pachinko--- wait no.
It's Sachiko the Sakai LOOOLZZZZZ!!! XDDDDD
Oh, it's the Number Four Sakai by the way. 0w0
(She proudly announced that herself LOLZ)

So... the conversation between us are a lil' bit too... crazy.
That I don't know where to start or where to end.
But anyway, times spending with her is AWESOME.

Thanks for joining us today Sachiko~ 8DDD

That aside...

I can't really tell how hectic it is to pick her and her kareshi up (damn amai-amai couple),
But it SURELY involves laughter and frustration and... zombie mode at the same time XD
(Well, I'm still tired at that time and my brain is NOT turning fast enough,
And ended up bringing them round and round the area...
I'm very, very, truly, sorry about that Sachiko-sama and kareshi-san OTL|||)

The funniest thing that happened in the journey is...
When we're about to reach Reina-nee-chan's place,
Which is like, after 30 minutes of car journey,
Sachiko suddenly popped beside my car,
Started to yell:
"MY HOUSE IS JUST... THERE!!!" *pointing at some place very near, around the area*
I was like: "See, I told you. It's near. =w= But lu taktau mana her place is, so I bring you lorrr~ X3"

LOOOOLZZZZZZ~

But yeah, I brought her the looooooooooooong way OTL|||
Again, I'm sorry. ;3;
Please don't hate meeee~ T3T

As we arrive Reina-nee-chan's place, she's still asleep...
Well, she's supposed to sleep... but we woke her up.
Not by intentionally, but unintentionally...
Through the laughter we had when Sachiko is around LOLZZZzzz......zzz...

*cough*
Gomen nasai onii-sama...
I couldn't control myself--- no.
We couldn't control ourselves OTL|||

Oh, and make-up with Sachiko around, is NOT GOOD. =A=
We kept on laughing because of her jokes and we dragged the time too much.
Thanks a lot, you sakai =3=

Anyway, when we're FINALLY done, it's already about 3 p.m. liddat.
We went to TCM to pick Bryan up - our guide and photographer.
Though... something went wrong with the GPS and we take a loooooong turn...
And it's around 5p.m. when we finally reached our destination.
Raining summore. =A=
Sadcase...



Our destination is an abandoned building in Glenmarie.
The name's really nice eh? But the building ain't. =w=

It's so abandoned that... ZOMG, it STINKS.

Oh well, an experience that I wouldn't want to repeat again OTL|||

Especially not with the bad whether and... heels. =A=|||
It's so hard to walk and pose with... OTL||||||

*cough* Bad things aside...
I've took quite a lot of pictures here =3
Though not as kakkoi as Onie-sama, but I'm quite satisfied about it myself. *loves*

But seriously...

The characters are... so confusing =A=
Originally it's Visual Kei / Gothic Lolita theme but......
Why there's like, 2 tranzies and a ghost and one... I don't who am I =A=|||
OTL orzorzorzorzorzorzorz OTL kao kao kao...

That aside...

Reina-onie-sama is FUCKING KAKKOI all the way from top to toe...
Even though I don't know what's the gender, but it's alright.
SHE'S DAMN HAWT!!!!!! *SPAMMING LOVE SIGNS AGAIN!!!*

Kou... He... She... whatever. =w=
I ingat ni perempuan~ 8999999
But there's one pose he's damn kakkoi and so mad...
Even though he looks like a girl but still, a fine art indeed. *loves*

Sachiko is AWESOME.
Posing is great... Costume is great...
Expression is great... KATANA is great... 8DDDDDD

Me? Haiz.
I don't know what to say OTL|||
I sucked in this thing from top to toe orzorzorz

I really need to learn more from these people X<



After the photographing session, we have dinner at Ninja Joe!
HAIYAH! NINJA! XDDDDDDDDD
*cough* Sowwie.

We talked and looked through the photos during dinner time.
And we half-celebrated blootot's amai-amai anniversary. PX
It's a fun time 8DDD

Oh oh oh, before I forgot...
This is a song I learned from Blootot.

Please sing the below phrase using ABC song or Twinkle2 Lil' Star.

Itai itai kimochi,
Motto motto iku yo!
Yamete yo tomete,
Mou sugu, icchau yo~
Itai itai kimochi,
Motto motto iku yo!

Nice leh? 8D
Her creation... LMAO.
Want translation? 0w0

Demo sonnan ja dame, demo sonnan ja yada~ PXXXXXXXX



Lol, addicted to that song =w= *cough*



Anyway, after that...
Drove Wayne-papa back and Qiqiqi back...
Bye bye to everyone...



Private Yamcha session.



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あああ。
解った。
そう言うもん、ですよな。

もうそんなんの事、初めても知ってるだけど。。。
やっぱり。。。
辛い。

まああ、いいわ。
それだけでいいよ。
もう知ってるだから、もういいよ。

ありがとう、大事の友よ。
おかげ様で、あたし一番心配の事はやっと解るんだ。
やっと、何が放せるんだ。

って、そろそろほんまに放せるよな。
まああ、長いの時間に必要だけど。
今から始めます。



やっとスタートだな。*sarcasm + irony... if you've watched K-On lolz*



でもさあ。。。



大事の人よ、
過去に戻るって。。。
やっぱり、無理だな。

今できるのものは、
何とか解んないだけど。。。
やっぱり話してる？

あたしも知らないよね~　PX

楽しいの事じゃないだけどな。

会えったら、何を話したいの言葉、
ぜんぜん解んないよな。。。
って、あんたも解んないでしょう？
まああ、解ったら、今すぐに電話あげて。
何時までも準備いいだよ。

って、家族が有るの時間は駄目だよな。
はは。=x=

でも、あんたならば絶対電話あげないよな。
あんたの問題じゃないでしょう？
何時までもあたし一人ぼっちに考えるんだけって。
全部の事もあたし自分の問題だけって。。。
電話あげるの理由が無いでしょう？
って、連絡の理由もないだよな。



って、ブロッグも見えないでしょう？
関係ないだから。
*shrugs*



大丈夫。

あんたの事を怒ってないよ。
嫌いだけ。
だって、何時までも自分の事は大事ないって。。。
人々達の言葉ぜんぜん聴いてないって。。。
ああ、何であたしはこんなんの人を愛したのかな？
ぜんぜん解んないよ。*shakes head*

*siiiigh*

でも、後悔してないよ。
あんたを愛したっての事。
自分選ばれたの道は此れだからさあ。
最初から、だれも責めるしてない。
責めるの人は、あたしだけさあ。
だって、全部の事を、自分に決めたでしょう？
だから。。。

だからここを謝れる。

傷つけの事も、辛いの事も、怒ってるの事も。。。
わがままの事も、あんたを無視の事も。。。
本とに、ごめんなさい。



と、ありがとう。

「さよなら愛した人、此処までだ。
もう振り向かないで、歩き出すんだ。」
~ Just Be Friends

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So, for three days, I need to thank these people below:

1. Kou - Without this dude over here to teman me here and there, support me, show me the ways, and does everything to keep me in contact, I would've died out there. And his make-up skills is good. Though... He's still bad in making long hair stuffs. You should practice on Reina more often LOLZZZ
2. Sachiko - WALAO. This chick really cracks me up everytime she's around wei! XD Another awesome person that I'm happy that I've met =3 But also thanks to her, our make-ups cannot finish on time =3= Sii yeh sakai number four...... And I still can't believe she's younger than us OTL|||
3. Qiqiqi - THE BEST SAIKANG WARRIOR IN THE WORLD! Can't believe she said she had done nothing... But she had done the best thing for us just by carrying all the bags and props <3 ILU SAIKANG WARRIOR~~~
4. Papa Wayne - Papa is awesome 8D And I really thank him for inviting me to his birthday party <3 Seriously, it's a great experience =333 Once again: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAUGHTER-CON PAPA~~~ ILU~~~ PXXX
5. The Cameramen: Papa Wayne, Bryan, and Joel (+Qiqi for the omake and uploads 8D) - If there's no you people, there's no me in the third best day. =3 So thanks for all your hardworks in photographing our... so-not-planned characters... OTL|||

And finally...

6. Reina-onie-sama
Walao. So many things to thank you for the past few days.
One: during my harsh-est time, you're there to... erm, entertain me. PX And make my time much worthy to be there instead of being ignored and... yeah. You know the story. =3 Shoujo S FTW XDDD (I just realized that I put that as your personal ringtone too!!! LMAAAAOOOO~~~ XDDD)
Two: The first day of butler day, I memang kena pampered kao kao kao~~~ *loves* And the second day too. *lovelovesss* Though the rose died in my car, but it's alright. Your love will always stay in my heart LOOOOLZZZZZZ XDDDDDD
Three: Telling me almost the whole story and clearing the things that I've been wondering. I don't mind if you tell me everything even though it hurts. Thanks for all the supports you gave to me =3 Though I really curious to listen to the whole story on how you actually get to know my personal reasons hmmm...... PXXXXXX Maa, ii jan~ 8DDDD Though, I'm not quite sure if I should call or what, because... I just don't feel like it. Maybe just let it die like that or whatsoever. I don't really care anymore. (oh really now. =w=)
Four: Letting me to hug you... ONIE-SAMAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~ *LOVE SIGNSSSSS* I think I'm going Kuroko towards you =A=!!! It's not a good thing OTL|||

So... thank you people, for all your supports and I'm very sorry for all those inconvenience I caused for all of you...

For the cameramen - I'm sorry for not being able to pose... pose, for the photoshooting. .w. I really need to learn and practice some few poses next time before I actually go on a photoshooting @w@ And next time, with a definite characteristic for my character! *burns!!! 8DDD*

For Sachiko and Joel the amai-amai couple - Happy anniversary and sorry for bringing you people aaaaaaaall around the area because of my... zombie mode @w@ But now since you know how to go and all those, I guess there's no need for me to bring you aaaaaaaaall around the world next time PX

For Qiqiqi - Thanks and sorry for making you carrying all those stuffs and drag you around as well @w@ You're an AWESOME Saikang Warrior... if I haven't said enough PX Sorry if I bored you up either OTL|||

For Kou and Reina - Wagamama shite tte gomen ne. And sorry for dragging you people down because of my personal problems. Thanks for all the supports and... yeah. Oh, and sorry for troubling your sleeping time and free time because you need to help me out for quite a lot of stuffs X<



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GAH! I sure had rambled a lot @w@
Sorry for those who doesn't understand Japanese... PX
Or romanji. 8DDD

YOSHI! Kore dake da!

Sore jya, ja ne~~~ 899999999999999999999999

A Fucked Up Day

Insert: What The Hell + Alice [by Avril Lavigne]

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"All my life I've been good, but now, WHOA what the hell'?!"

"I'm freaking out, where am I now? Upside down, and I can't stop it now..."

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Woke up in the morning, a very normal morning, until a very rare phone call from Miss A.
Wow, she actually asked me out for the very first time!
This is rare indeed.
And I actually thought of spreading this "joyful news" to Mr.E.
And my MOM agreed.

And so, of course, I agreed.



But little did I know what kind of situation I'm facing later.
Or rather, I should've known that this would happen.
Perhaps that's why I brought along my laptop.



So, with a happy thought, I hop onto the car.



My journey to hell starts right now.

~~~~~~ A FUCKED UP BORDERLINE ~~~~~~

First stop: Area S.

If you're wondering about the distance, it's just like... From Leisure Mall to Mid Valley x1.5.
Normally, from my area to that area, it'll be only about 45 minutes.
But...

With that kind of rusty car that hell-knows when was the last check-up,
That kind of driver,
And that kind of LOOOOONG queue of other cars...
It took more than an hour for us to reach there.

Funniest thing is that...

Since Miss A already know that she's going to be late (one hour delay),
Why she still call me out and ask me to come along?
Taking all her graceful time to turn into my house,
Just to grab me up in her car?



Aha.



Guess what's her reason?



She needed SOMEONE to be in the car with her.
Oh, so I'm supposed to be that special someone?
Frankly speaking, she's afraid.
Or rather, her mom told her to do so.
And she couldn't find Miss B, so she find me.
Oh, so what, I'm just a random replacement?


AND, since she's passing by my area,
She just incidentally call me out during the most odd time,
Without me having even have preparations,
JUST to accompany her in this long journey.
And I thought she was so good to ask me instead of anyone else? Of course not, I'm just having a fucked up fantasy of that.

Fine then, if she was happy, then I'll be fine.



I totally have no problem communicating...
Or rather, chatting,
With her, at the first part of the journey.

Until I found her real reason of the journey.

She's going back to area S to pick up her bass,
THEN back to area T to practice with her gang of people,
THEN practice with ANOTHER gang of people,
THEN back home. (Or maybe not, based on her decision in the later events)

So what am I now?
A random load?
A somebody that she can just use and disposed of?

I thought she was just afraid of the road and just want to get herself accompanied.
And I thought she was going to work.
That, was actually a better reason for my existence in the journey,
Since I can still enjoy and do anything I wanted in that particular area.
(Of course, I had my choice to go on my way but...)

Wait.

Did she just used my kindness to do this?
Including my feelings for her?
Is she serious?
Or I'm just imagining too much things again?
I mean, not being able to realize that this is one kind of "using" people?!



Damn.

I thought I'm okay to be used by these people,
Because they were my true friends...
And I thought that this feeling of "betrayal" won't appear in me from them.

But seriously, now?

Or I'm just DUMB enough to comply to whatever their needs are?

Seriously, someone need to tell me now:
1. Am I an idiot for trusting these kind of people?
2. Am I an idiot for loving these people?
3. Am I a fucked up idiot for not even considering my own path because of these people?

Even though I've known them for years?
Loved them for years?
Since high school?

We're always a gang for GOD DAMNED FUCKING SAKE!

Do you have ANY IDEAS how much have we been through?

Why had these people changed so much?
Or I just discovered their true nature?
Or it's that I'm the only one that haven't changed yet?

~~~~~~ A FUCKED UP BORDERLINE ~~~~~~

Fucked up, fucked up indeed.

I'm so freaking fucked up that I don't even KNOW what the HELL I'm typing.

Vulgar words? You should notice that and be warned the first moment you saw my title.

Now get the FUCK out from my blog if you find that offensive.

PS: My emotions varied from this blog, so please proceed with caution.



And no, I'm not going BACK there and edit what I've said,
because I'm saying what I actually wanted to say right now.

~~~~~~ A FUCKED UP BORDERLINE ~~~~~~

So, here we are at Area S.

The first half of the journey up 'till this point, I'm okay to chat with her.
Until I found out that she's going to practice with her band mates.
And I start to feel uncomfortable.

Oh yes, I'm still very, VERY, uncomfortable that she's with this band.
I mean, she only knew these people for one freaking week,
And she wanted it to be an ETERNAL thing?!

Are you, FUCKING, serious?
Even if you're an alien, you're going a lil' bit too far here.

^ That's what I honestly thought when I first heard the news.
And even when I first meet Mr.C, I was holding up some kind of grudge towards him.
Especially when he commented about my view on "Real Musics".



Of course, everything changed when I started to really speak to him.



He is an awesome dude.
Seriously awesome.
I now truly understand how he could actually gather bandmates in just one week.
Though the keyboardist is still a piece of shit... but that's okay.
And, well, he gathered people who have interest and passion,
Not talents.

Surprised by his view, but also respected.
Because there's very few people who did that now.
He's really one of the few 5%.

Me?
I'm still on the 95%.
I'm not as great as he was, to impress so many impossible people.



I don't understand a fucking fact that...

Why does Miss A needed to cover my identity up?
She really don't need to cover it up.
Are you that afraid that your friend had offended what you think might be your next boss/leader?

Hey, I'm not afraid to confront him and talk about the misunderstood I had with him.

I don't need you to cover it up if I really feel like hiding.
And for YOUR knowledge, I revealed it myself.
It's not like he KNEW it from the start or anything.
Or the fact that you're trying to hide is actually not helping in "hiding" me up.

Bringing me here is considered pushing me to the hell-fire.

Seriously, I'm really doubting if you're trying to help me right now.
Am I misunderstanding you? I'm not sure if I am.

If you really read this fucked up thing, and really have something to say, call me right away.
Be it over 12 freaking a.m. or 3 fucking in the midnight.
I'm always waiting.

And to repeat again: I'm not afraid of confrontation.
We seriously need to solve some invisible tensions we had right now.
And if YOU'RE wondering WHY on earth I'm acting like that to what you thought is "everyone",
It's because of YOU.

Fucking hell. YOU.

You go out and ask my friends, if I acted like that in the first place.
And compare how I treated/talked to you and Miss B and Mr. E, it's clearly different.
And if you DON'T understand yet.

It's " - s - a - r - c - a - s - m - ".

Go search a fucking dictionary if you don't understand that fucking word.

~~~~~~ A FUCKED UP BORDERLINE ~~~~~~

So, we arrived at area/location T.

The real conversation with Mr. C is at this place.
And yes, we really had a good time.
Exchanged a lot of opinions,
And actually learned a lot of stuffs from him.

I really couldn't believed that I earned respect from him.
Just because I wasn't afraid to tell him my opinion.
And... Perhaps...
About I telling him that I feel insecure for my best friend to join a band with a bunch of strangers?

Either way, great time talking with him.
But it was short.
Too short.

That we soon needed to change a place.

Uhuh, I decided to follow them.
Since I need to practice with Miss B for the event they had organized this Friday.

So, we grabbed the cars, and went to location U.
Which is another fucking 30 minutes journey.
Oh, btw, from area S to area T, it's like from Cheras to Klang x1.5.
Used about 45 minutes, thanks to Mr. C's driving skill.
Instead of being drove by Miss A.

*cough* Anyway, Miss A took back this time.

When we arrived there, it's about 3p.m.

Wow, the time I depart was 10 something 11.
They're only ABLE to start after... what, 5 hours since my departure?
This is just SO awesome.

I wasted my 5 hours for nothing.
And it's piling up from this point.
You shall see.

So, we found the gym, walked for like... minutes.
With my laptop in my bag, it's seriously killing me.
Not to mention all those chargers and everything. *rollseyes*

Anyway, we arrive the gym, and the so-called person-in-charge chase us out.
Of course, after he spoke all those "reasons" for 15-freaking minutes.
But actually, it's only one single reason, and he repeated that single reason for THREE times.
1. Asked him, said no, he spoke for the first time.
2. We discuss, he came, show us an "example", spoke for the second time.
3. After we left, he told the guard, and the guard repeated for the third time.

Seriously, is THAT fucking necessary?

I guess the old man is just too bored and everyone obeyed the rules so much that he felt bored...
That no one listened to him babble.
Interesting, eh?

So, we walked for another 10 minutes, going up the hills and stairs...
And found another place.
With little "cottage"-like shelters.

So, me and Miss B had our first attempt in singing "Magnet".
But... she said it's not suitable, and we find other songs.
Sang a lot of dude songs, including Digimon songs.
Damn, she's more hardcore than me in Digimon songs!
Or I'm just becoming weaker because the lack of listening to Digimon songs these days?

Anyway, we couldn't find one.
And when we thought of one song, we have no lyrics for it.
Luckily, another dude stayed here and wanted to go up to his house.

Yay?



No.



We need to walk for another... couple stairs.



Anyway, we arrived, and continue to find songs.
But... our efforts are futile.
At the end, we gave up in dude songs, and went for duet songs.
That didn't worked as well.

Damn, today is just not a good day for songs.

Though I DO have great time singing Shoujo S with her. PX
That's the only thing I'm relieved throughout the whole practice session.
Of course, singing "Trust Me" wasn't bad as well...
Typically, any singings with her, is really not bad.
Because she's awesome.
End story.



Oh, I forgot to tell.

Mr. C is really good in finding songs for people to sing.
He can just find all those songs that complimented the singer's voice.
He is THAT good, that he could find songs that matches Miss A's vocals.
Something that I couldn't do and failed in, and felt useless at.

Applause for him, seriously.

And perhaps I'm jealous because of his skills for being able to impress someone that I could never impress. But he's really THAT awesome that he made me respect him for that.

Anyway, it seemed that it's time to change a place again.
Yes, AGAIN.
But first thing - get back to location T. *rolls my fucking eyeballs and shakes head*

Seriously, have they even tried to plan today's sessions before?
Everything is not just messed up, but also FUCKED UP.
A place that they couldn't use? Then find another place last minute?
Seriously, it really doesn't help.

Or it's because I'm bringing bad luck to people?

I'm not quite sure, but where ever I go, things like this just happen.

*sigh*

Fuck my fucking life.

~~~~~~ A FUCKED UP BORDERLINE ~~~~~~

So, we went to location V.
I remembered when I reached there, it's around 5 or 6.
Uhuh, this is interesting.

How long do they plan to practice in this place? *sigh*

Luckily, this is the last place that I'm in this whole area of area T.

Anyway, I'm here, and watch them to dance.
Being such a bored one, I shall learn along, then?
Better than doing nothing than sitting around, right?

So I learned...

Wow, Miss B is such a precise person when it comes to dancing.
She's just so awesome...
I'm so lucky that I've met her today, seriously.
Along with Mr. C, although I didn't get to talk with him too much... UGH!

It's YOUR fault, Miss A.
Yes Miss A, I'm hereby proudly to BLAME YOU on this fucked up day that I get today.
Though I know everything is of course my own decision.
That I followed my heart instead of my head.


Now, that aside, I'm just getting so freaking bored and tired.
After a whole long day in a HOT car that burns my legs,
And inside a lousy driver's fucking rusty steel (no, I won't call that a car somehow),
What would you do if you're me?

It's not like I refuse to talk or whatsoever, it's just... I'm not in the mood.
Sorry Mr. F, it's not like I don't want to communicate or to ignore you,
I'm just... fucked up at that moment.
If I had your FB right now, I would so go and apologize to you.
Damn.

Speaking of which, I need to apologize towards Mr. C. *goes on FB*

Now suddenly, she popped up something like "Yes, I don't need to go back Cheras!"

Wait. What?
You're telling me that you're not going back to my area?
Then, how the FUCK am I supposed to go back then?

Okay, so you asked me what's the time I needed to go back.
Great, you asked me during this point.
I'm not sure what comes towards me that time, but I really should say right away.
Because it's fucking late and everything and you didn't even practiced yet.
But my FUCKING white side took over and said that whenever you're done.

DAMN my white side.

I hate you.

And so, she took her grace time to practice and everything with her gang.

Me? I'm just sitting aside and do my own stuff.
Whatever a lonely person would do with a laptop that doesn't have an internet access.
What will it be?
A) Listening to musics while looking at blank stuffs, and groove along with it.
B) Watch some movie.

Luckily, I still have that DVD in my laptop, so that I can at least watch and laugh.
Instead of waiting for them to finish...
Which is like, around 7 - 8 at night.

The gang back into the room after doing their practice somewhere else.
Miss A whined about she could sleep in this very room right now.
And suddenly she asked again about when I'm going back.

Okay, is she seriously making me feel guilty for coming here all of the sudden?

DAMN! If you're FUCKING worried about that, why bringing me here at the first place?
I seriously wished to take a FUCKING taxi and go back.
Well, I have all the money I wanted, why not?
And I did suggested towards Miss B that I'm going to do that.
Though she said it's not safe and everything.

Hmph.
I don't want my mom to be worrying about me.
And I don't want my cover to be blown.
Because I shall never get another chance to go out again.
Of course, not with Miss A.
Perhaps never again.
But I still have Mr. E with me.

Damn, I'm so gonna go out on a million dates with him.
Rather than going on a million DEATH with Miss A.
Of body and soul.

Oh, and if this is your attempt of FREAKING cut off your ties with me, you're succeeding.
Because you're making me to HATE you.
Is it not obvious enough?

~~~~~~ A FUCKED UP BORDERLINE ~~~~~~

On the journey back, I'm thinking of a lot of stuffs...?
Actually, I don't.
Because I'm focusing on the road.
And of course, Mr. E.

I seriously feel like going out with, talking with him, and ramble about what happened to me the whole day. I don't even mind to cry and break down in front of him that moment.
I guess that's the only time I used my most soft and fragile voice to talk to him.
Seriously hope that he won't freak out.

Yes Mr. E, I'm really fine, physically.
I had no car crash, very luckily.
I encounter no animal bites, "surprisingly".
It's just... emotionally, I just need you by my side.
I don't mind it's over the phone or anything.
Because you make me feel like I'm still on earth.

That I'm still me.

That I'm still... here.

That I'm still alive.



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"Love hurts, whether it's right or wrong."

"I, I won't cry."

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Thanks to today, I've learned my lessons... or have I?
Will I repeat the same mistakes again?
That I will let my white side to take over my body and soul?

And seriously, if it's not because of Miss B, I don't even plan to go location T again for this Friday.
I really don't want to face Miss A, because I feel like SHIT right now.
Yes, I felt like being treated as a piece of SHIT.

Because for the whole day after she dragged me to this hell,
She ignored me for 80% of the time.
Words of gratitude? Words of apologizing?
There's none.



Now how do you feel when you're being dragged around and nothing had been said?
I'm not sure if this is just how exactly that damned keyboardist felt when he's being dragged through all the places without anything had been said, but at least Miss B DID promised him something after all the hells we've gone through the other day. But me? I gained NOTHING.
I'm not even sure if I should compare myself to him,
In terms of liking someone that doesn't like me back,
Which is also someone that I'm not supposed to. UGH. *rolls eyes*
Before you even protest what I've said or done to you in comparison, think of what you owed me.
Even as someone that was like that keyboardist even got words of apology.
Me? Seriously I gained fucked up NOTHING from you.
NOTHING I say.
NOTHING.
And if you really want me to start counting them, you're seriously fucked up and being hated by me.
Wow, I've never dragged on this subject before. *sarcastic smirk*
But I guess when love turns to hate, this is what happen.

You start to take up topics that you doesn't cared about in the past.

And speaking of this, I owed Mr. E and Miss B a lot of thanks...
For supporting my very existence for the day.
Well, at least, I feel happy that someone actually noticed me and... yeah.

Miss B, for actually come over and talked to me even though Miss A is busy for something else.
Mr. E for actually spend his money on a ninja burger, just to feed me... and cheer me up?
Wait. How much the burger cost? DAMN! I'm gonna pay this thing back =A=

Anyway, the burger's still here with me.
Because I'm too full with whatever I put and swallowed in today.
Even though my stomach is hungry for the first half of the day.

Again, million thanks for Miss B and Mr. E.
I guess that doesn't really express how much you two "entertained" me for today.
Especially you Miss B.
If you're not here for today, I really had NO IDEA what to do anymore.
Although our "objective" just somehow... died.
By the way, love your dance moves.
You're awesome. <3



Of course, what happened today might mean nothing to anyone to read this post today.
But for me, it really changed my view and everything.
I don't even feel afraid to express my hate for someone I loved before.
Even though anyone who had been through this day who read this knew it very well,
Who and who each of the anonymous ABCDEF might be.

If you wanna talk about it to someone else, suit yourself.

I don't really care.

It's already becoming a true emotion anyway.

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"If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me baby baby."

"I found myself in 'Wonderland'."

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Love is turning into hate. There's no going back now.

For what this fucked up day had made me.

Kimi ni Todoke

Insert: Kimi ni Todoke [by May'S]

Okay, so instead of playing Disgaea 2... or recording Mr. Music like I promised I would (Don't kill me you youngsters! ;A; ), I actually re-recorded "Kimi ni Todoke" lolzzzz... 8D

Along with some background voices...

I know that they're bad. =3=

Fail in mixing/editing OTL|||

*cough* Anyway, I shall... shamelessly, post my cover of "Kimi ni Todoke" in this place, though I don't create it PXXX



Please listen and give all your criticisms!

Is it better this way?

Insert: What the Hell [by Avril Lavigne]

Note: Originally, I was going to write a blog... but somehow, they became lyrics Owo
Note2: Yes, they're clashing with each other... because that's exactly how I feel now.
Note3: Yeap, if you noticed, they're only half of the truth, and some of them are lies. But I'm mainly retelling what I've heard and encountered in my life.

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[Verse 1]
Is it better if I don't say anything at all?
Is it better if I don't do anything at all?
Or is it better if I just do whatever I wanted,
Care less about the consequences?

Is it better to agree with something that I don't?
Is it better to not be myself?
Or is it better to defy the whole world,
As long as I feel okay with it?

[Pre-Chorus 1]
I hate your voice, I hate your clothes,
I like this style, I like this art,
I love your manner, I love your choices,
I hate myself, I hate the whole world!

[Chorus]
Is it better this way?
Is it better to walk on the different path?
Or is it better that way?
Is it better to continue my chosen path?

Do you understand me?
Whatever I said I rant I cried
Do you agree with me?
If you don't you better shut up now!

'cause I wanna be me
'cause I wanna be free
But I wanna be anything but my own self

I'm so confused
I'm so upset
The way the whole world disagreed with me

[Verse 2 / Rap???]
So what you say that heavy metal is alright
So what I say that if classical is my style
So what you say that the drums are kinda harsh
So what I say that if I hate all the voice you cried?

So what you say that you don't like whatever I dressed
So what I say that I don't like being a lady that I'm not
So what you say that I don't suit to be some musician
So what I say that you don't suit to be some human

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I like your skills, I like your hair,
I hate this art, I hate this song,
I hate this man, I hate that girl,
I love myself, I love all kinds of shit that I don't!

[Chorus 2]
Is it better this way?
Is it better to say and explain what I feel?
Or is it better that way?
Is it better to say something that I don't really mean?

Do I understand you?
How you rant and scream and cry into my ears
Do I agree with you?
If it makes you feel so much better I'll say "yes" to you

'cause you want me to be
'cause you want to feel good
But you want me to be nothing but myself

You're so confused
You're so upset
The way I disagree with the whole world

[Bridge]
I... I'm afraid...
I'm afraid that I am alone
I'm afraid that I have no friends

Why... Why must I afraid?
I have nothing to begin with
I have nothing to lose and I... I... I...!

[Chorus 3]
Is it better this way?
Is it better to leave everything behind?
Is it better this way?
Is it better to lose everything I am I find?

Or is it better that way?
Is it better to be anything but myself?
Seriously, is it better that way?
Is it better to wear a mask for my whole life?

Do you understand me?
Whatever I scream I wrote and I cried?
Do you understand me?
The feeling I feel deep inside?

Have you listen to me?
Have you even try to understand what I cried!
Have you walk out from that little box,
Or I'm the one who need to walk out from here?

'cause I'm so self-centered
'cause I'm so outrageous
'cause I just wanna be who I truly am

But I'm losing myself
But I don't feel like myself
And I even start to hate myself

Is this how the world wants me to be

[Ending (Verse)]
Is it better if I don't say anything at all?
Is it better if I don't do anything at all?



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Originally, I have inspiration how this song would be like when I wrote down the lyrics/feelings, but...

DAMN MY MEMORIES!!! QAQ
I forgot to record them them.
FML OTL||||||

Unsolved Problems...

Insert Song: Toxic [GLEE cover]

Yes, I have a lot of unsolved problems.

1. My composition... it's still undone.

2. My arts... still undone.

3. My family... tensions still going on here and there.

4. My money... Borrowed too much and forget who owes me.

5. My friends... I'm not even sure if they're my friends.

6. My love... Is still unsolved.

Mainly, here, I'm going to talk about my love life.

Holymama, I actually decided to talk about it so openly?

Well, not of all the details, of course.

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Just like every other teenagers, I have a love problem.

As the others may encounter problems like:

Betrayal, third person, cheated, fooled around, etc...

Mine is... a little bit different.

Though most of you all might encounter a very similar situation as I am.

First of all... Are we even together?

I'm not quite sure.

All I remembered is that I confessed, then received something like a rejection...

Though not entirely, just say that someone needs to think and we can still be friends...

Then patiently... or when hopes turned into despair...

I received an answer, after one whole month.

And the answer is, "I think I can be with you."

Okay, so someone thinks that we can be together.

But are we?

We hardly even cuddled that much, neither we did much things as lovers.

Heck, we didn't even kiss for goddess' sake.

And... the so-called relationship only last for, what I say, two weeks?

And then, everything are down to the drain.

No more affections, no more being together.

We walk our own paths, and that's all.

I did try to make things better, but it's not accepted at all.

Perhaps the timing wasn't correct, since it's SPM time.

Still, there's no saying about "breaking up" or whatsoever.

There's only silence.

And hell, I really hated silence.

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It's an unresolved love tension.

I can proudly, and sadly, say that I'm still in love with this someone.

And I'm not sure if I'm thinking too much...

I can feel some hints that someone is still attracted to me.

But in reality, is it?

I'm not sure at all.

And if you still don't get it yet, SPM year is like, 2 years ago.

Means that this tension has been going for two years.

Or even more.

So should I solve this problem, or should I not?

It would definitely break something between us, my friend said.

Am I willing to risk a friendship for this stupid thing?

Something like, breaking up?

Wait, does that someone even THINK that we're still together?

*rollseyes*

Well, I can say one thing...

Something had definitely broken between us.

I don't mind if I break it into pieces.

Even if it hurts, I don't want to feel the poison hurting me everyday.

Might as well kill myself than acting strong to face the poison.

Even if you heal me bits by bits, I will still suffer the poison.

Unless someone get me an antidote.

Which is unlikely.

So I would kill myself, and be revived without any status ailments in my body.

So that I can continue my journey without worrying anything else.

Of course, if I'm able to forget the pain that inflicted me.

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But to be honest with everyone who reads this...

I really, really, wished to see that someone 2 years ago...

Before every calamity dwelled upon us.

And if I am given a chance again...

I would throw away everything else and kiss that someone.

Even if I were going to be slashed and killed, I have no more regrets.

At least... I would be able to taste how an intoxicating kiss taste like.

At least, I wouldn't feel so much doubt about everything now.

At least...

I don't want to end up like Coach Beast from GLEE who've NEVER be kissed before.

Which is a DISASTER! =A=

But I never had the courage to begin with...

Oh well...

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Anyways, I need some opinion.

Should I be a face-less person and confront that someone regarding this matter?

Or should I stay how I am and let it be how it is?