Something To Say To Some Certain People 01

To Some Certain H:

Hmm, here right after another more than one month (I really starts to think that you love "after one month" quite much, ain't cha?), you start to "talk" to me.

Now, seriously? 'keng gai', is it that easy? Are you thinking that I'm able to forget whatever things one month earlier and talk to you in normal basis? Well, who knows? Perhaps you think that our relationship has slowly got back. But... seriously?

If you noticed, when I tagged you in my shirt of memories, I said "on behalf of my 2009 self", not the current self. Why? Because currently, you're not the whoever that was in the past. You may not noticed that: YOU CHANGED. What made you changed? Your schoolmates, your job, your ego, your... cosplay. Relax, I'm not like some certain T who wants you to change your personality (lolwhut is that even possible? =A=), but to be back who you are actually is the best thing for everyone that you had caused trouble at. But seriously, a lot of people (basically my jimuis) are disappointed at you. ME, especially. *shakes head*

But of course, you mentioned NOTHING of the above. *shrugs* Sadcasesind00d.

Oh well, since you start to talk to me, I shall reply you as well then. Like what I did with almost everyone else who talked to me. Yeap.

But note this: You have already created a huge scar in my past, and it's not gonna recover. Not and never. How to make it recover? Ohhhh, you wouldn't know how, didn't you? I'm not gonna tell. Please do THINK about it yourself. Something SO EASY. Something that you did the LEAST.

Wait.

Have you even done it before? Like, honestly?

Heh, I'm starting to doubt that. Your ego won't let you do it so easily. Not and never. And -I- know when you're being honest and when you're not. Oh, and you know what? Stop using the other's kindness for your own damn sake. My onie-sama isn't that easy to be fooled around with, okay? Please stop causing her trouble, and your own trouble. Thank you.



I'm done here.



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To My Precious:
"我说一件事情，你答应我不要哭，不要情绪不好，不要逞强，不要打我好不好"
Daijoubu. I'm okay. I'm fine =3
I didn't cry, I didn't emo, I didn't Cheng Qiang...
And I will NEVER hurt you.
"就是，我们可以暂时别说感情的事情不？"
It's not hard, since I've already guessed that you would say something like this...
And perhaps, I was thinking about something even worse...
Perhaps that's why I'm not as hurt as you thought I'll be.
"我知道你喜欢我, 但是我还没弄清楚我对你的感情"
Well, actually, I'm not hurt at all. Haha.
"我都一直把你当妹妹…… 毕竟咱们刚认识"
I knew one day you would say something like this.
And I've already told you, I would rather look upon you as my Nii-chan,
Since I've already knew that you would look nothing beyond a sister at me.
"假如真的要进入那种关系, 可不可以, 先让大家放下心理的某些障碍后，在来说？"
I'm not sure if you actually need to apologize for that but...
I guess I'm alright about it.
And it's just cheeks, so don't worry.
"因为有时候，拿来比较会很难受的"
But...
"就暂时别谈感情的事情就好"
I never compare you to anyone, seriously.
You just reminded me--- not only me, Kou as well ---so much about that.
That's all.
"别哭噢~~~ 别为我流泪噢~~~ 真的不值得哦~~ "
I apologize for... you know, bringing that up a lot of times.
Though it wasn't intentionally... *sigh*
It just, reminded us of... that. OTL|||
"不过，你说要管我，你可以继续管下去~~~ 我不阻止…… ><"
But of course, no matter how much you reminded us of that,
You're really a different person. =3
And I'm happy about that.
"感谢你为我做的一切"
And you're pweety desu. PX
"好, 你不哭，我就好过点"
Oh, I guess I can still flirt around with you, can I? 8DDD *shot*
"要不然, 要不然, 我真的, 过意不去"
Okay, maybe not OTL|||
[All the above things she said is just part of the actual convo.]
By the way, yesterday when you came, if it wasn't because of your friend,
I would've invited you in but...
He was waiting (impatiently? Owo) outside so...
Yeah...
[I only pick the main points out for some kepoh people to see 8D]
I can't help you to collect the glasses anymore, so you sendiri go collect lar~
The CD, if you want a non-speech version at the back, just tell me lar~
And I have never eat panadol before so don't bother la 8DDD
[If that kepoh someone really want to know the whole convo...]
I'm getting better already, so don't worry---
Did you even worry? Hmm, I wonder...
Oh well, skip that asideee~
[Please do tell me. <3]
HAVE A NICE DAY DESU! <3
[Have a nice highlighting session 89999]


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Phew, I finally typed everything that I wanted to say one (two?) days ago...
When I'm sick...
But didn't managed to OTL|||

Lalala~