Inspiration, or Self-Hurting?

Insert: Emo Vocaloid Songs...? [Nee, Rolling Girl, Hajimete Koi ga Owaru Toki...]

You know, being heartbroken wasn't the worse thing in the world.

And perhaps, thanks to this, my inspiration for some certain things had came back.

Especially the tattoo-ing that I stopped doing since...

Since...

NS? Or Highschool?

I think it's Highschool, since I can't do it in NS anyway.

I should develop more on my hand for more often.

Though my mom warned/scolded me for this,

Since it's poisonous - the ink, that is.

But seriously...

Who cares if I got poison or whatsoever?

Seriously, I don't see the importance of this anymore.

Let it be death or alive,

I just want to express myself.

If the others done self-hurting through knifes,

I use it through poisonous arts.

At least, it's an art.

Not scars.

But of course, these effects are permanent.

In tact within your body.

Unlike the scars, which are just temporary.

Heh.

So much for telling people off from self-hurting,

Here I am, hurting myself...

Only in a different way which I don't feel the pain.

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I shall write more songs...

Shiomaru-senpai is really good,

But her songs are all emo-ish.

Mainly because her instruments are all piano and violins?

Hmmm...

If that's the problem, then I shall be writing more upbeat songs.

But her vocal's melody line inspired me.

Perhaps I should put the same way into my instrumental songs...

Like the Saxophone thingy. -sigh-

Gah.

I shall use these 3 days to AT LEAST produce one full song...

And finish some unfinished business...

Hitoribochi no Michi? Yeap.

Nee, Shitteru? Mmhmm.

Tsumetai no Kokoro? Perhaps...

And then, I shall grab someone to perform these for me...