Insert: 解脱 / Sad Rain / Love Letter /你是愛我的 / 平常心 / Should I Love Him?
I might be writing this in two languages...
Just for the fun of it...
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Out of boredom, or just a sudden impulse,
I decided to write about the so-called history of my lovely lives.
They're nothing for me to be proud about,
Neither they're something for me to reminisce.
Just that...
I just can't deny the feeling of my heart that dwells on the past.
And the inability to move on from it.
Though, I tried, and I ignored all sorts of feelings that I had.
But then, I just can't deny them, at all.
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已经有。。。两年了吧？
算算一下，好像也是呢。
那两年的时间，仿佛过得太快了。
而那两个礼拜的时间，仿佛像永远般的，徘徊着。
我们，真正有在一起过吗？
我们，真正有说过分手吗？
你说，你和我分手了。
我说，我们根本什么都没有说过，做过。
根本什么都不是。
虽然，我们有过一次的约会？算是吧。。。
嗯。。。。。。又好像不是。
嗯，有抱过 （算是吧？），有牵过手，
然后，也有去过你的家还有。。。
咳，详细就不说了。
虽然，我们都没接过吻就真的是。。。*sigh*
人们都说，初恋时最难忘的，最甜蜜的，最有遗憾的。
我说，如果你还是那一个人，可能这是真的。
如果，我能够坚持，你能够接受，可能一切都会有改变。
啊，如果啊如果，如果这世界有如果，那人们也不会有遗憾了吧。
不过，如果不是因为你，我也不会有所成长吧。
可能，我还会在另一个人的面前，死命的展现出自己那什么都没有的“才华”吧。
可能，我还会拼死名的粘住某些人。
嘛，虽然它不算是一个坏事，不过，你是唯一一个让我大开眼界的人。
还好你是我的初恋吧，让我能够更有毅力的下定一些决心。
不想继续了，没有希望了，就把他们丢掉了吧。
把爱剪成碎片让它随风去。
但是，也是因为你的存在，让我害怕了恋爱。
害怕希望，害怕伤害，害怕追求，害怕结局。
要不是某人忽然地问我，我可能也不会再次跌入这一个坑。
那时的日子是很开心，不过，回想起来是超苦涩的。
而且，那一段我自认最白痴愚蠢的做法，我以后是绝对不会再做了。
还真的是要好好的感谢你呢。
还有，今年四月的事情，我是绝对不会忘记的。
你虽然没想到我会有这么白痴，也没想到我的心情是怎样的。
没关系。
我以后也不会再这么白痴的跟着人家团团转。
多谢你，我才能够对人狠心一点。
多谢你，我才能够分辨是非与重要性。
Thanks to you, I can finally ignore a lot of stuffs that doesn't deem to be important to me.
Friendship? Relationship? Oh please.
Those are really nothing compare to myself.
If someone wants to die - go on, have fun in the other world.
Without you, nothing will change in my life.
If I have no one else to talk to, I can always talk to myself.
Then rage, and die, like everyone else.
Yeah, that's what you taught me in that lesson.
And you certainly taught me well.
所以说，如果人们问我为何忽然会这么的冷淡，冷血，
特别是四月之后，
我只会说我累了，就这么简单。
但是我绝对不会对他们说是因为你，教了我这件事。
If people ever noticed how much I secluded myself from people. Heh.
I guess you ARE that much of impact towards me.
PS: Thanks you to, you gave me enough inspirations to write like, what, 6 songs? Though neither of them really are down in the papers yet... Heh.
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Of course, thanks to you, I met someone else as well...
Should this be something I shall be happy about?
Heh. To be honest, I doubt it.
And the worse thing that happened was that I really threw myself in.
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Dear... (I can't believe I can still call you this. -sigh and facepalms-)
你是，我可以说，我用了最多心思的一个人。
我从来，从来，都没有亲手画。。。漫画？ 给一个人。
更何况是用了很多个版本/纸张 Draft, Sketch, Second Version, Sketch, Paper cutting, etc.
画了之后还录制一首歌给你，让你在夜晚可以睡得更好一些。
过后，还特地到你家去，强（？）吻了你。*咳*
之后，还买了花和蛋糕，放在你家门前，按铃后，走人。
想象一下，我真的不相信我做了这些人们都觉得很荒唐的事情。
然后我还（因）为你录制了自认最好听得一手自创曲。
你竟然不相信那是为了你的。
Seriously, what the FOOK.
你有这么不相信我是真的真的爱着你的吗？！
Fine, whatever.
反正从你身上得到的回忆，也算还蛮不错的了。
对一个对我根本没感觉的人来说，算真得很好了。
有笑过，有哭过，有抱过，有吻过。
算了吧。
虽然你一直再说着关于 “他” 的事情。
Funfact: Kou, does this remind you of anything? -smirks-
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I finished with the past, now let's come back to the present.
There's a reason that I couldn't fall in love with the current princess...
Datte, ouman no hime-sama ni nachatta.
Annan no hito ga zettai atashi no mon janeen dakara saa~ ¯\(－ ▽ －)/¯
And those disappointments? Yeap, they're just too much.
Off you go~ （╯°∀°）╯︵(>.∀.)>
Then the most recent one...
I just CAN'T fall in love with that one, at all~ t(=3=)t
Reason is simple: No feelings from the other side, and I can't do anything about it.
So yeah.
Off me go. ┬──┬ ︵(>.Д.)>
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虽然埋怨（？）是蛮多的，不过，我真的没有后悔过。
虽然我是很希望回忆可以快点散去。*siiiigh...*
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