亲爱的母亲......

Insert: Last Resort [by Paparoach]

亲爱的母亲，请你记得你今天所说过的事情。
你放心，我永远都不会再向你求救。
我有朋友，我有能力，我只是没有钱。
不用紧，我会自己去开一个户口，不再需要你的管理。
~Direct copy from my FB status



Itched to say this again in English:



Dear mother.
Please KINDLY remember what you've said today...
(Oh, maybe you won't because you said it "unintentionally"~ Oh how silly am I...)
I shall NEVER ask help from you anymore again.
I shall have my friends, my abilities, my everything.
I DO have money, thank god you gave it to me.
But come to think about it: I never should've taken it.
I should've work myself through it... oh how silly of me once again.

I apologize.
I never should've taken your money.
I never should've use your money.
I never should've ask for money.
I never should've BORN in this so-called rich family.

I would rather be born in a small, poor, family, and let myself to strive through all the challenges.

Rather than being in this small cage, unable to learn a single thing...
Not to survive, not to take care of myself...
Being spoonfeed... no. Not good at all.
Worse of all: No freedom.

Nuh-uh. Not GOOD at all.

I'd rather fly and BANG and DIE just like that...
But at least I tried, I experienced, I DID it by myself...
I had a choice, and that's my choice...
And at least I won't have any regrets.

At least I fly, for once.
Just like when I chose to steal a person's kiss without thinking the consequences.