Insert: Aozora no Namida [OP of Blood+, sang by Takahashi Hitomi]
Once again, in such a short time, I have experienced things and is eager to write them out.
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I can't believe a promise is so easy to be broken.
I'm not sure if I have broken any promise towards my family, but I sure broken a lot towards my own self.
Promises that friends pact with me?
Oh, they have been broken from times to times.
They should have known about that themselves.
But did they? Of course not.
They thought that I will forgive them, even without apologizing.
But I must tell you one thing:
Obviously, I have never kicked anyone out of my car for being late or whatsoever.
And obviously I did not yell at them for being as late as this hour.
Because I've known that it will happen.
That doesn't mean that I'm happy with it though.
This unhappiness is growing within me, and it's slowly erupting.
I'm sure that dude that experienced my odd behavior that very day should be able to detect it.
The sudden spinning of car and sudden brakes.
But of course, I did not intend to hurt my lil' MyVi over here.
Since hurting it shall cost a lot of money, and that's not fun.
Though the fun part, was to scare people, and self-thrill.
And I can't deny I have a great excitement in experiencing the silence and the thrill this dangerous movement is bringing me.
I can't even say that I'm mentally normal anymore.
Since I'm not really afraid of death any longer.
Even by suicidal.
Who knows, maybe someday, I really will carry someone with me and bring them to hell.
Of course, if they die.
If they don't, bless them, but they shall be in guilt for more than ever.
Because I will certainly haunt them after my death.
However, if they can change, I don't mind leaving them after seeing some positive results.
After all, my grudges towards them is that they never even tried to change into what's the best.
But of course, the promise that was broken and had a very big impact towards me, is because the very one that broke a promise with me, is something that I never expected it to happen.
And worse still, it seemed that destiny had set on to block me away from contacting this very important figure that was supposed to help me out.
Ah well, it's not important to her anyway.
After all, this is my OWN project.
She's just doing me a favor.
Nothing else.
And to her, I'm just a customer, nothing else.
That's why our path shall never cross.
Fate decided.
The end of the story.
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Still in the subject that I'm agitated, I'm agitated about some other stuffs as well.
I must say out honestly and proudly that I hereby HATED a certain maid cafe in around this area that I lived in (within 2 hours of car journey).
No, I don't hate the concept at all, it's the boss and the customers that I hated at.
Of course, when this concept is out, it's without doubt that the customers would be otaku and perverts, but that's the main reason why I hated about it.
And secondly, is the fact that the boss of this certain maid cafe has completely ZERO knowledge of what should HE suppose to do.
He's just sitting there and let the maids do every single thing.
Of course, maids were supposed to do every single thing, but guess what?
The boss just SIT there with his mouth SHUT without saying a single word on HOW should they do their jobs - literally, the maids must think on their own on how to keep this shop alive.
Hey, wasn't HE the BOSS here?
Worse still, the time table of the maids is obviously not organized and there's no such thing as break in between their jobs.
By the way, the time ranges from 10 until 10.
Morning until night.
And sometimes, over time.
You think you can handle this job without foods and drinks?
I shall speak for myself that this is nothing but:
"Bull Shit."
This fucking man is not a good example of a leader AT ALL.
Obviously he's just another pervert that wants to see girls in maid uniforms, and he opened this shop so that he can see it 24/7.
He didn't even cared about the welfare of the girls, but only care about how the shop will go-
Oh sorry, he didn't even care how the shop will go, it's only how the service will go.
Foods and drinks meant nothing towards him.
Maids are the best.
The paid is high, though.
But personally, I think it's another fucking Bull Shit.
And on the subject of otaku, I really wonder if every single otaku in the world is seriously perverts?
True, none of us are human without a single feel of perversion.
Especially true man.
But some times, it seriously disgusted the heck of me out of their perversion.
Can't they just keep it to themselves?
I mean, it's so OBVIOUS that nearly everyone could sense it.
Their perversion level equals to those pervert uncles that kidnaps young girl and rape them.
Ugh, whatever.
I'm just very sad that in my little otaku circle, there's just so few male otaku that only appreciate the anime in sense of plotline and characteristic, and obviously, the art. Instead, they focus on girls, bodies, especially BOOBS, if I must say.
*rollseyes* Whatever.
This is one of the main reason I'm slowly backing off from this odd circle.
Ah, damn, I can't believe I said that this kind of circle is odd, because I once believed in it.
I mean the real life otaku circle, not the anime/games/manga in general.
Because I still love and appreciate all sorts of anime, games, and mangas.
As long as they're good, and their art is really balanced and harmonized, of course.
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The only day that I went and feel much comfortable, is when the maids were not wearing their costumes and were cosplaying as other characters.
Still, I dislike the fact that the guys that came in were always looking at the maids as if they're stripping them off.
My friend and I were just there for eating, and so we didn't look at the maid, but those idiots.
And with how their boss are treating them, I still can't believe they're able to work there.
If it's because of the money, I seriously have nothing to comment about.
Though I probably will shout out, "Does it really worth your health and safety?"
Those maids were some of my friends too, and therefore I care for it.
But if they were insisted to continue, I'm in no standing to tell them to back off.
After all, their choices are not mine.
And whatever the result is, it's their own responsibility to carry.
I won't cry for them.
For they did not listen for the moment that I've already spoke out towards them.
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Right now, I shall focus in the music circle for a while.
Since I do learn more stuffs from here than any other places.
Especially not with non-music-students.
Who knows nearly nothing concerning good sounds at all.
I'm not saying that I know a lot, but I'm learning them.
And that's the reason why I need to stay away from those that doesn't know.
Just to keep myself to not be influenced by them.
Especially my mom, yes.
And I need to take care of my throat... damn.
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At least I've already finished my initial... draft, perhaps? Of my 3 compositions that I'm supposed to hand in for re-audition. Many thanks to Miss Lina who helped me out (and inspired me even further!) to test the pieces out, especially for "Roadside", since it's the only one in lead-sheet form and is the one that I have the least faith on. But after listening Miss Lina's demonstration on the piece, I realized how much potential that this piece could be.
Once again, THANK YOU MISS LINA!!!
And so, I shall prepare for my description on how to play these pieces... and it'll be another headache in trying to make my words clear. *sigh*
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