Wordless Bitterness

Insert: Going Under (by Evanescence)

You.

You do NOT trust me.

You do NOT trust my judgment.

You do NOT trust my judgment and my words.

I have explained, and yet you do not understand.

Which part of my English do you not understand?
Which part of "this is not aimed at you" do you not understand?

Yes, I do meant to shoot you - I really do.
But this one is clearly not about you.

You felt it, because I've told you.
I've told you, in a different platform.
I've told you, in a different way.
I've told you, that this is in a whole entirely different situation.

Though similar, it's DIFFERENT.

DIFFERENT.

Yes, you're hurt.
Maybe I am sorry, but I will not take back my words.

Because I am true to my own statement.

Still, it hurts and frustrates me that you do not understand.

*takes a deep breath, and sighs*

Never mind.

Perhaps the next time, I'll keep everything to myself.
Maybe in that way, you will not get hurt any longer.

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[ In A General View ]

You see, this is why previous/current relationships failed, including family and friends.

Because often, the truths are... hurtful.

But if you can get through that, maybe things will get better.
If you can actually take my words, digest the bitterness, you might find that it's good for you.
And you will change for the better.

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[ As An Entertainer/Audience ]

I might not be able to live up to my own expectation, but I certainly hoped the others could.

It's my own selfishness to want the others to advance and give me a better entertainment - for I am the ultimate audience of the whole show.

I want: The best show in the world.

That's why I give critics, in hopes of making the whole quality better for people to enjoy.
Who cares if I can advance or not - I want to be an audience.

An audience that knows what I myself want and in the best shape ever.

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[ In the end... ]

So yeah. If you can take my words and transform it as a Skill +1, it'll be great for everyone.

If you can't, then... I shall not speak anymore, if you do not wished for it.

I shall keep it, and be bitter about it forever, by myself.



For I know that there's a way to make it better, but no one wants to listen to it.